PAUSE for Goodbye


i didn’t think it would come to this

loss and death is a part of life but always a hard pill to swallow

what do you do with it?

as you stop and pause to grapple with the loss of someone close or even someone in your immediate circle, life all around you continues

and somehow you feel like you’re betraying their memory by continuing to move on as well

after i found out about this loss i found myself 1. not really wanting to talk to anyone or do anything

2. not believing its true 3. being mad at him for not sticking it out and being mad at everyone else for going on with business as usual and not stopping to remember him and finally 4. realizing that indeed it was true. its ok to talk about it. he is no longer here. and my life goes on, with a little more sobriety, but it indeed continues on.  

Malcolm X once said, ” every defeat, every heartbreak, every loss contains its own seed, its own lesson on how to improve your performance the next time.” this was definitely a wake up call for me and i’m sure a lot of people. life is too short and precious for beefs, hangups, pettiness and procrastination. we need to value the people in our lives and really take the time to step out of our self absorbed bubbles and step into other peoples lives. form real friendships, act with compassion and kindness and speak with empathy.

I thank God for another day and I give him the glory! I praise him for coming into my life and opening my eyes, my heart and my mind to see and embrace him. Second Timothy 1:7 says, “For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind!” Let us not be beseiged by the ambushes of the enemy but endure to always be found alert, prepared in full armour and in fellowship.

:::PAUSE for goodbye::::

wow des, i can’t believe you’re gone. what a tragic end to a life FULL of potential. i’m sorry for being mean to you and not taking you seriously and brushing you off at times. i know there is nothing i could have done to prevent your choice but i still wanted to say i’m sorry and that your presence and life meant more to me and everyone you said hi to, talked to, laughed with and lived life with than you’ll ever know. wow! you will always be in our hearts and minds. Goodbye Des!

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