Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.
T’was Grace that taught my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed. [John Newton (1725-1807)]
in bible study as we talked about the ‘eye gate’ and the effect the things we gaze upon have on us. one question asked was, how do you think those things have distracted/blinded you from the truth? Its easy to be distracted or your sight to be clouded. easier sometimes than we would like to admit! you dont realize how essential sight is in both the physical and spiritual sense. you dont realize you have blind spots sometimes until something awakens you. in the physical reality the old addage goes ‘seeing is believing’ and in the kingdom of God more often than not ‘believing is seeing’. believing changes everything about you. It changes how you see the world around you and thus how you respond to it. Joshua and Caleb saw what God saw. they saw the land through the eyes of the promise and the promiser. they saw a land full of milk and honey and responded thus to it. instead of “seeing” the land through their own faith and strength, they saw through the eyes of their Great God. the way maker! That story is a great example of those that believe and those that dont. when you dont believe, you can’t see. you can’t see beyond the circumstances. your vision fails. your insecurity takes control. and you’re shipwrecked.
all that to say i’m learning to TRUST in God. don’t lean to your own understanding. your own understanding is entrenched in your doubts, past experiences and insecurities. it can not and will not sustain the life and dreams God has for you. you have to…”let go of who you were in order to become who you will be”.
i’ve come to understand that quote a little differently now. as we seek wisdom, maturity, the life/the truth/the way God has for us…we must let go of the immaturity, the insecurity, the pride, the offense, the passivity, the fear to become who we will be. who we truly are. its funny when you realize that you dont have it all together, that in some areas you’re still very young. still blinded. as we grow up we realize how much we really dont know and areas we havent been able to see clearly and how desperately we’re in need of God. Let God give you new eyes, give you his thoughts and teach you his ways. the only way to embrace the maturation process is with openness, vulnerability, truth, wisdom, grace, his strength, his truth, his sight and accountability. any other way will push you further back.
Hebrews 5: 13-14 says, “3 Anyone who lives on milk, being still an infant, is not acquainted with the teaching about righteousness. 14 But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil.”
2 Kings 6:16-18
Isaiah 32:1-8 [the kingdom of righteousness]
p.s. but the challenge is to be mature and yet not lose that child like wonder and sense of amazement.